Sad

My heart is heavy today. We received news that a dear friend of ours from church has lost her battle against breast cancer. The news came late last night from some friends in our home group. Oh, how I ache for her husband who was not ready to let her go Home just yet. He's broken hearted; he referred to her as My Claudia Ann or My Woman. Just the sweetest couple...I know she's no longer suffering, and I know that God knows how much it hurts for us when we lose a loved one, but it makes me sad.

Then...I'm reading one of my favorite blogs that had a link about a family who lost their six-year-old daughter in a drowning accident just a few days ago...while we were at the pool at the lake having lots of water fun. Ohhh, how sad! I was feeling the tears coming and my chest tightening as I read.

I am glad that L asked to sleep in our bed tonight...even though at first I was grumbling about it...knees in the back, aching neck in the morning b/c he will constantly turn my face towards his tonight as he rubs my jaw to look for that mole he loves, no covers...then I read about the sweet little Hannah that is no longer with her family. Those parents who would give anything at all to have their little one knee them in the back tonight. I'll be snuggling with my little one...you can bet I'll be enjoying the snuggles. I ache for that little sister...she's 2 and can't understand why her big sister isn't there with her. Oh...I can't even imagine how devastating that kind of loss would be. Ugh! I really want to get C and snuggle her down in our bed, too. Maybe I will.

Drowning scares me so much, especially with C...she has no fear. She loves to be in the pool at the lake. There are steps that circle most of the shallow end where she loves to play when she's not in mine or Z's arms. But her favorite thing to do is go under (One, Two, Tree...Undah) and jump to us. We are constantly reminding her to wait on a grown up to say, "OK" before going under since she feels like if she sees you in the general vicinity of where she is, you know she's coming your way...Scary!!!

Selfishly, all I can think about is to beg God to spare me that kind of loss...Oh, how it must hurt. I'm broken just by the thought. I want to just pray that God will protect my children, and use their lives and mine for his glory.

God protect them...and be with that family who laid their baby to rest today...and be with David, who loved his wife so much...give him some peace on this side of glory as he misses his bride.

I'm going to go snuggle with my little man and our little Tinkerbell.